Please read the warning before continuing ! _________________________________ 10/14/2025_______________________ O EM GEE! Can't believe it took this long to finally write an entry in my diary :) I've been pretty busy lately and haven't gotten around to updating this website. But anyway, today i woke up at 6:30am and i was super tired because i only got like 5-4 hours of sleep. Me and my mom were rushing so when i left her house i didnt have ANY breakfast at all. So when i got to school they werent serving breakfast anymore so i had to wait until lunch to have anything! Speaking of lunch, all they were serving was some dry ass chicken sandwitches and a slightly big slice of pizza. I chose the pizza and a side of chocolate milk. I really have to pull my weight because i'm failing most of my classes and i have a pile of missing assignments i have to do :( DAMN YOU PROCRASTINATION!!! But when i got out of school and went to my grandmas house, i ate cereal, fries, and some ramen. I usually always eat when i get there because my school's lunch is like a breeding place for ED'S! >:( _________________________________ 10/15/2025_______________________ Nothing really happend today. I felt so empty and dizzy while dealing with everyone yelling simultaneously. The french teacher had the most ANNOYING ASS high pitched voice today, and i felt even more irritated most likely by the Vicodin. I also have a slight headache and my stomach hurts, im taking a break from this shit for at least a month so i dont get completely immune. I almost cried in class today, i dont have any friends, or boyfriends/girlfriends while everyone else laughs at eachother. I hate this so much someone save me. _________________________________ 11/14/2025_______________________ UUUUGHHH!So, im sick. Not sick sick but my throat hurts and i think i have minor chills. I just finished drinking tea and soup and i HATE feeling like this shit. Anyway, hopefully i can feel better soon :( It hurts like hell when i cough and i also felt tired. I wish i could of got sick later because i have SOOOOOOOOO much work i have to catch up on in school, AHHHHH I FHML!!! _________________________________ 12/19/2025_______________________ Well, i'm at my uncles house and i'll be here for at least a week for my christmas vacation. This semester went by fast but i really do need to get better for my grades next semester. At least for a little while i'll be at peace, also my birthday is next month! :) I'm still planning out what i wanna do and i'm super excited!! I want it to be WAAAYYY better than this year's birthday. I OD'd, chocked myself with a scarf (barley), and cried my eyes out because i was alone on my actual birthday, it was nice for a little but i wanted to do a bunch of stuff :( I'm scared to have my hopes up agian, but maybe... maybe next year will be different. It's my sweet 16! My christmas spirt might be down due to years of unforseen events, but im trying to be happy agian. Or maybe just be content. It feels like each year im loosing a part of myself.